Completed Three Years
One of my old senior staff, H, said to me, “Continue three years anyway, so it will be something.” Here, I have just completed three years working for this Indian venture company, and, yeah, may I say it is definitely something to me. I don’t know what exactly it means to me, though.
This is my forth contract with the company. I sign for one year contract every year end. Foreign staff in the company basically works for a few years contract, and I always tell the company that I am comfortable not to sign for more than one year, because in this way, I can always be conscious. I keep questioning how much working for the company and living in India still means to me. Am I still in? I haven’t had an answer of “No”, yet to myself, so I am still here.
In another sense, the company is also safe as they can let me off in one year if I am not performing. It’s simpler. There are many things to do out there. There are many interests. So even though I am quite deep into my job, I try to be flexible and not stick to what I have. Knowing that I could have done many other things out of this company, I choose my work. This way, my decision is more highlighted. I can go anywhere, but I choose to be here.
Everytime my family calls me, they say “So, have you started thinking to come back?” I laugh. I keep telling them I will never come back. But they don’t believe me. But I am serious. I don’t have intention to go back to Japan, nor get a work there and make happy kids. I say to my mother, “When you get old, just come to India so I will take care of you.” They think I am joking, but I am not joking at all. I guess I just want to be away, for a long time.
Now I don’t have time to think through my life plan or whatever. There’s an exciting work and good friends. I wake up and list up works to do on the way to the office, and I sleep after taking memos of ideas on my pillow. I claim my stress and anger to people and share nice dine together. What else do I ask for? Maybe a happy holiday? Anyway, one more year to go. It’s a frontier.
*By the way, my company is hiring Japanese staff now. Check it out: